Six Months Later…
It’s been six months since I last posted on here, and seven and a half since I released Light Shows and Shadow Puppets. I haven’t kept up the website and I haven’t even finished the song pages for LSSP songs. I’ll be working on those over the next few days but as I’ve got an album underway I won’t make promises.
So, around this time last year my home life became hectic. I won’t bore you with the details but for months my family weren’t sure what was going to happen or even if we’d be able to find a home. It all worked out well in the end and I don’t want you to worry. We found somewhere to rent for a little while and by April moved into a permanent home that we love. Seriously, it’s a fabulous little unit.
Early this year, as things were becoming clearer and less scary, I said to a few people that short of serious medical issues there was nothing left in the way of me creating as much music as I physically could. I should not have said that.
Since about January (though I didn’t realise it then) I’ve been dealing with progressively worsening chronic fatigue. It’s somewhat evened out since about June/July, in that I’ll have great weeks and horrible weeks but they all seem to snap back to the same level of being unable to do much eventually.
What this means for my music and writing is that sometimes I’ll go for days or even weeks unable to achieve what I see as a good level of productivity. I’d slated the album I’m working on now for a late May/early June release but then fatigue knocked me on my butt and I didn’t have much of a say in the matter. Through August and September I’ve been working pretty solidly on getting tracks polished and ready to be unleashed on the public, so I have reason to believe it’ll be released in the next couple of months. At the moment the primary obstacle is saving up to get the CDs printed. But that’s not a huge problem – it gives me more time to develop extra bonus tracks that I hadn’t planned to include originally. Yay!
So, how’s this going to affect my work in the long run? Unless I’m extremely lucky, this is going to be a lifelong issue for me. I can learn ways around it – which I’m already doing! – but I’ll always have to deal with the fatigue itself and the SUPER FUN side issues such as brain fog, confusion and sometimes near complete lack of anything resembling an attention span. Like I said though, I’m learning ways around it. I’m far better at managing and navigating this muddy swamp called chronic fatigue than I was even two months ago. It means I’ll have to take things slower, and it’s always going to mean that. But it cannot and will not keep me down 🙂